just be...

The past few weeks were not the best times of my life. Broke, unemployed (although I'm starting with my new job tomorrow) with bills to pay and a massive case of recurring migraines. Life really handed me lessons to learn on a silver platter. A lot of it were consequences of stupid and selfish choices, I really got no one to blame. But, the thing is I didn't really want to blame anyone. The situation I've put myself in has taught me to grow up and (wo)man up to the occasion. I'm not exactly doing a great job but I'm surviving, which is a feat considering that I'm not used to the kind of pressure I'm in.

There are things I can be optimistic about since I can't (hopefully) get things in a shittier state than they already were. I get to sleep better now, my nerves and anxiety aren't too difficult to manage, I'm reading again and my personal relationships are a lot better because I finally saw how important the people I took for granted were. Mistakes do really turn you into someone different. It can either turn you in for the worse or the better, in my case I pray for the latter, but mistakes would never make you half of who you really are, if it did then with all the mistakes I've done I'd be a size 0 by now. 

I'm really talking to you. Keep a steady pace. Keep going.
You will get there.